Sinisterism is about finding the primal aspects of the left-hand path, primal in history, primal in the psyche, thus obtaining truth. Now there's a topic that I have never seen brought up by anyone on the left-hand path surprisingly. Now, there most likely are
articles and videos and so on and so forth pertaining to this, but I've never seen the topic of motherhood and the left-hand path brought up. Now, in Hindu traditions, the left-hand path is the feminine path. Now of course there is there there are differences between the eastern and western left-hand paths but as I said in the eastern tradition it is the feminine path.
Uh I have a friend who once described the difference between the left-hand path and the right-hand path as in as in well an example when men fight they how should I say they fight by a certain code. They're not going to pull hair gouge eyes you know grab somebody who have balls unless it's life and death but let's say a bar fight or whatever they're going to punch and wrestle and whatever.
But when women fight, there's hair pooling, there's eye gouging, there are clothes ripped off. I remember in high school, you know, when guys fought, yeah, it was a fight and people enjoy watching fights, but when girls fought, holy [ __ ] the whole school turned out. Now, I I find this a fascinating uh description of the right-hand path and the left hand path.
Basically, to get ahead, you're willing to play dirty. Now, to help me on this topic of the mother in the left-hand path, I have my wife, Lisa Karine. Hello, Lisa. Hello. Now, it's been a while since you've been here with us on Well, you you help out on the channel with every video, but actually uh sitting here having a discussion.
And it's been a little while since we've we've done that. Yeah, it has been. Now, going back in your history, now I know your history, of course. And I know what you went through with your son. Mhm. and his father and how basically that turned a simple little Canadian pagan woman, young woman into in a sense a vicious beast in some ways because there's nothing more deadly than the mother the mother animal who's whose young is being let's Hey, to be blunt, [ __ ] with.
Oh, yeah. Yeah, that was a that was a turning point for me. Um, I had a son, a beautiful little son. He was just a little baby. Um, when all the the [ __ ] hit the fan, what it was was I was not a Christian obviously, but his father was very much a Christian. No, he they were or he was part of a bizarre religious cult, Christian cult of some sort.
And I wasn't really aware of it until we were married and I had the children, my daughter, my son. I mean, hate to interrupt you, but did initially you just thought maybe he was just the average, I don't know, uh, Lutheran or something, right? Yeah. Exactly. Yeah. And even though you had your pagan beliefs and he had his, you could still find a balance or whatever, compromise.
But it wasn't until after you were married that you discovered he was a psycho, a religious fanatic. Fanatic. Oh my goodness. Yes, very much so. Um, give give a little more background on him. Um, well, like you would you had mentioned like guns. Well, there's nothing wrong with guns. It's okay to have guns to protect yourself, but for him Yeah.
But for him, it was it was bizarre. He used them to threaten He threatened you. Oh, absolutely. Yeah. He he used he would say he was going to work in the morning and actually he was coming going to the US to buy guns. Yeah. Um and um and bullets like hundreds and hundreds of bullets. He actually had one of those machines that could make the bullet.
Right. It's this big machine. Now was this cult preparing some for some apocalypse? That I don't know. That I'm not sure of. Um they were just they were it was so fanatical it was unbelievable. Anyway um because of this that I was not on the same plot as he was you know in in terms of you know being a belief system. Yes.
Um, so what he did was he took my child. Now, how old was your son at the time? He was just Oh, maybe maybe 6 months. Wow. Yeah. At the most. 6 months at the most. And that he told me and he had the gun. He had the gun to my head. And what he said was he would rather see my son dead than be with me. Of course, I I didn't know what to do, right? I mean, because there was a gun to my head.
Would he really kill my son? Would he really do that? Um I I And then so what he did was he he he took the son my son and he went to his mother's house is the the fanatical family. The fanatical family. Yeah. And I wasn't going now at this point. I was mad. I was absolutely coldhearted, mad, and wanted revenge. So, I knew where his where his parents lived, of course, right? It was about 15 or not 15, I think it was 18 miles away from where I lived. And I had no money.
And so, I had he had all the money. Yeah. The car, the whatever. And so I walked to his parents' house and when I got there, um, they were telling me that there was something wrong with me and that kind of stuff. The family was and they called the police. Um, so the police got me out of the house, right? And, uh, they kept telling me, "There's something wrong with you, Lisa.
There is something wrong with you. Who? The family was saying that. The family was saying that to me and and the police were there like they didn't do a whole lot at that point and they and and my ex was able to still keep him. He was it related to money like he had more of the Well, obviously you were a housewife. Well, no.
I worked uh jobs, too. Oh, you did? Oh, totally. Okay. You were working at that time. Yeah. But you weren't making much. He was making more. So, he had the balance was Yeah. Okay. Yeah. More on his side. Mhm. Than So, did he have lawyers? Um eventually he did. Um, but what happened was he um he and his two sisters, no, one sister, they took Jamie and they went to Your son, my son. Yeah.
Uh, and literally kidnapped him and they were headed for British Columbia. And I didn't know that at the time. I just at I didn't know that they had actually left with him, right? And so I'm still now looking for him. Where is he? Where is he? Where is he? God damn it. So that's that's what what about 1500 miles? Oh, yeah.
Something like that. From from Manitoba to British Columbia. Yeah. And they didn't get all the way to British Columbia because they hit a um an some a moose. A moose. Yeah. Which total their car very damaged. Why did I know it was a moose? But anyway, and um anyway, as um time goes on, he he got custody and I got visitation.
Now, what did this do to you? Well, that's the thing like that made me I wasn't going to above as I I I went through it, you know, after it all and I realized I will fight back. Like I will fight back. I know my strength now. Now, even though at the time Yeah. you didn't know, let's say that you were on the path, do you think this is what pushed you? Oh, absolutely. Yes.
what propelled you on to what later on you understood as being on the path. There was no longer the the love and light and Diana, the moon goddess, whatever. No, you're absolutely right. And I didn't mean to bring that part in. So, but thank you. Yeah, you're right. This is what made you turned you Well, you already had had it innately.
Oh, yeah. within you. But then this is what pushed you, let's say, into the shadows in a sense, out of the light, into the shadows, into in a sense reality. Oh, yeah. Yeah. You know, and now we Okay. Now, unfortunately, now you had you had contact with your son later on. Now, he even spent some time with you. lived with you for a bit when he was older.
Yeah. But that brainwashing mindset was already implanted in him, unfortunately. Oh, totally. Cuz he he uh he told me that he I should be a Christian. Your son? Yes. Well, when he was a teenager or something. Yeah. All right. But you still had some contact, but Oh, yeah. But since then, you've lost contact with him again, unfortunately.
Yeah. Um, now we were watching a a documentary about Scientology. Oh goodness. Yeah. And basically they were interviewing people family members who who had left Sciento either people who had left Scientology or had family members in Scientology and how they had disconnected with they could no longer communicate with their family members.
They were shunned and so on and so forth. Now, I remember stopping the documentary and looking at you and basically telling you this is what you're dealing with. It dawned on me. It's like this is exactly what you've had to deal with that you shouldn't feel guilt over what you in a sense losing your son to this cult. Yeah.
You shouldn't feel that because you were in a sense you were uh your son was victimized. Oh yeah. And and because of that and knowing that and knowing what these people will never stop, I could only hope I would I thought that instead of me always fighting back fighting back, of course I I always did fight back. There needed to be some sort of I got to let go in some ways for him to have a a good life and hopefully and hopefully he would awaken to the reality what's going on.
Not necessarily become a let's say a Satanist or a Luciferian or a sinisterist but just realize what was happening within this this bizarre little Christian cult. Yeah. And I never for many years I I wasn't sure that I made the right decision. But you did in the long run. But you did because it is it is detrimental for children to be subjected to a constant tugof-war between parents.
It is not healthy. Yeah. No, that's true. That's very true. But um you know when I did see him again and and yeah it did change a lot you know in terms of my own practice um don't mess with me when it comes to my kids and I'm not going to stop doing that. Um it's it g it gave me a a sense of uh validation of the kind of woman I am, right? It wasn't just something that was a some an overnight thing or whatever.
This was me, you know, empowering empowering myself. As Na said, whatever doesn't kill you. Yeah. It makes you stronger. And it did.
