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 @MichaelCrabtree1

You know how they say if you are scared of spiders touch one or scared of flying then get in plane etc? I haven't been able to listen to this band the past few months because of heartbreak and I am so afraid of the pain in the tears. So here I am listening without collapsing but remembering though. 25 years ago my boyfriend was getting a haircut at his boyfriends salon. They were the music playing and he was impressed that I not only knew of but fucking loved loved loved every note, as he did. A few months later we were living in NYC together at 21 beginning the adventure when this EP was released with "Otherness". We sat in our share high as fuck listening high volume over and over all the time. Neighbors knocking not to complain but to inquire. Arguing about lyrics, getting goose bumps, sharing feelings, singing or trying to, and laughing alot but crying some. I didn't realize until after April 4th last year when He died unexpectedly how much memory every melody held. Leaving this comment is part of therapy now, I guess, because so many of these songs can be pretty overwhelming but I think need them. Appreciate who you love now and love more. Realize the soundtrack to your life could someday be all there is left.
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In the liner notes to “Milk & Kisses,” Elizabeth Fraser partially dedicates the album to her friend Jeff Buckley. “Love and a thousandfold rose to Buckley, my Rilkean-hearted friend.", she says. Jeff Buckley drowned during a spontaneous evening swim in the Mississippi River so, it's a song about loss. I hope the song, although pretty overwhelming now, will got you through this difficult situation and ease your pain in the long run. May you rememeber your own Rilkean-hearted friend with love and only love.
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 @annak.1862  she was madly in love with him.
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 @annak.1862 close but the song is about heartbreak not loss
I hope you're doing well Michael. My boyfriend passed away five years ago. He never introduced me to this amazing band, but he did introduce me to other great bands like this. I wish me and him couldve shared a coffee and had a smoke to this song. Thank you for sharing your experience!
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Thank you for sharing this ... i have SOOOO many Memories all wrapped around Cocteau Twins too... i was just thinking about all of them today.. and came to listen again.. and found your story... i think there should be a mini-Vid-e-booklet of stories connected to C-twins music... i bet there are many.. i have many... thank you.. your words Touched me.
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Love more....Thanks for sharing, michael. I hope you are feeling better and that you appreciate every moment you have with those you love. I can't imagine losing someone that close to me. Appreciate the time you had together.
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April 4 2023 - Hope you are doing well Michael
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March 2024 Your story moved me to tears Thank you for sharing this bittersweet memory.
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This is beautiful :,)
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Merrily merrily merrily, life is but a dream.....
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Michael, I'm sorry for your loss, but I have no idea, if, you'll receive this message or not... ??? I'm a Psychiatrist, so if this album is therapy for yourself, then I couldn't agree more. I'm a firm believer in the memory of music and it's impact of all of us ― Yet, your situation is far more complex and underdefined with respect to "falling in love" as well as "our first great love". You loss is more painful because you probably feel as if a portion of your soul was torn away with your loss. Personally, I've got "curated moments" throughout my lifetime, based upon the Cocteau Twins music since 1982. My life would be incomplete without both the music, as well as the people who I created those memories with them. After five years, since you wrote this here, I'm absolutely sure your not over this terrible loss: It may never heal, but you still must carry onwards to find another. He would have wanted this for you, and you should never feel like it's a betrayal because people are much like songs ― They're never too far away; these are small vignettes of life's triumphs and losses; yet, every song has it's own personality, tempo, and meaning. Both of you, couldn't have picked a better band to experience all these experiences and emotions together. Nothing will ever replace him but your life's so much the richer for having him in your life ― You found a love that most never ever do. Stay strong and know that your story touched me and I just had to write you to say so.... 🎢🎡 + πŸ’” + πŸ’₯ + 🌈 = πŸ˜‡ Be good to yourself my friend.
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